Looking
back at yesterday, I realised how subconsciously, I had chosen words and quotes
about the paths we take in life. Our journeys and the choices we make at the
crossroads we come to.
It was twenty four years ago that I packed a suitcase and I filled it with
dreams, hopes, a few fears, a bit of naivety,
curiosity, a longing and a deep desire. It was twenty four years ago that I
found my way to Europe and leaving
"home" behind.
I don't
think I was aware at that time, that I was choosing a path. I believe I simply
responded to a call within, and I let myself be guided. Yes, I responded. As
though it was a responsibility to myself. And for me, the personal definition
of responsibility is the ability to respond.
And over
the past twenty four years, I believe that suitcase I once packed has
symbolically accompanied me over the years. Sometimes I lost a few of those
"belongings". Sometimes I found them again. There were new
"belongings" that came about, and some were replaced. Yes, maybe that
is the way we have to embrace all our dreams and hopes, even our fears and our
naivety and curiosities, our longings and deep desires. These are all our
belongings. They are more our belongings that anything we can only symbolically
hold and touch and feel.
I still
call "home" just that. Canada will always be home for me.
Thankfully and beautifully home. But finding my way to Europe, and here to Germany was
also my "homecoming". The years and the stories and the generations
and all those ancestors before me, maybe they lead the way. Maybe they took me by the hand and guided me.
And after all these years, as I stand here with a glance back over my shoulder,
I can say more and more, yes I have been guided. By an inner voice and an
intuition. I have been guided by my "belongings". But most
importantly, I believe it is about allowing myself to be guided.
I lead my
life, but in that same breath, I allow myself to be guided. I allow that inner
voice to speak. And sometimes it only just whispers. And sometimes it roars. And
maybe somehow that is where the wonder and the secret lies. Realising that when
we allow ourselves to be guided by that inner voice, our intuition and that
tender pull of the heart, we actually take the lead.
So here is to all of our journeys. Here is to all those moments we stand at
these crossroads and choose to walk the way the heart pulls and that little
voice calls. Here is to our courage and our dreams. And here is to trusting all
of our "belongings", to trusting ourselves. Here is to leading, and
here is to being guided.
Hold your hand out. Your heart knows the way.
Much Loves, and a lot of Gratitude,
Angela.
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