"The only way that we can live, is if we grow. The only way that we can grow is if we change. The only way that we can change is if we learn. The only way we can learn is if we are exposed. And the only way that we can become exposed is if we throw ourselves out into the open. Do it. Throw yourself."
"Whatever you do, you need courage. Whatever course you decide upon, there is always someone to tell you that you are wrong. There are always difficulties arising that tempt you to believe your critics are right. To map out a course of action and follow it to an end requires some of the same courage that a soldier needs. Peace has its victories, but it takes brave men and women to win them."
"Bring to Life..." There's a beautiful play of words in this.
I like to think of life as a feast with friends. A feast in which everyone brings something along.
You bring what you enjoy yourself, and what you are happy, and maybe even proud to share with others. You bring what you are good at making. You bring your signature dish, that which everyone else at the table says, "How wonderful... Tell me how you did it."
And you dress for the occassion, you prepare yourself for the occassion. You set the table for the occassion. And when you walk through the door, you embrace each and every soul, grateful and happy to see them.
But you also "Bring to Life..." what you feel is missing in life.
You birth it. And you mother it. And that over a life time. The raising, the encouraging, the comforting and the loving. You give it shelter and you give it nourishment.
I do believe that is what it is all about.
We are here to bring to life what we want from life.
"You get a strange feeling when you are about to leave a place. You will not only miss the people you love, but you will miss the person you are now, at this time and this place, because you will never be this way ever again. But you are excited for the person you are swimming towards and look forward to the new you that awaits in the distance."
Azar Nafisi Excerpts from "Reading Lolita in Teharan"
For all those wandering hearts and souls...
All those discovering hearts and souls, on their journeys.
Either from place to place, city to city, country to country.
Or simply, on a journey within. To your own dear self.
"Making a decision is only the beginning of things. When someone makes a decision, he is really diving into a strong current that will carry him to places he had never dreamt of when he first made the decision."
"You are waiting for that magical day when someone makes the connection and recognizes who you really are. Maybe they’ll first catch the sparkle in your eye. Or perhaps they’ll marvel at your insights and the depth of your spirit. Someone who will help you connect the dots, believe in yourself, and make sense of it all. Someone who will understand you, approve of you, and unhesitatingly give you a leg up so that life can pluck your ready, ripened self from the branch of magnificence. Well, I am here to tell you, your wait is over. That someone, is you."
And I believe I can simply only look back at this week with gratitude. And wonder.
And then more gratitude.
It was a week ago, a Friday night like tonight, and I sat down, poured myself a glass of wine and started writing. For myself.
Yes, that is a daily ritual, but last week, I felt myself in a different sense of writing, a different clarity. There was a different energy in those thoughts I was putting to paper. I can't say I was in a different sense of thinking. Maybe better said, I allowed myself not to think, or to over think. I simply allowed myself to write. Without putting any thought to it.
And maybe it wasn't quite "writing" as I am in this moment. It was more like mapping. Writing out an intinerary or an agenda (how harsh a word...) as though I were on a journey. I know where my starting point is, I know where I want to go. And as a Sagittarius by birthright, I love the journeys and the travels. I also (sometimes) love the little detours and unexpected side roads of those journeys too. And even when it is not what I expected, I am starting to learn more and more to trust, those too, are all for a reason. I'm learning to declare the destination, and start walking towards it, but to let life steer the way. I am simply learning to trust. To trust myself. And to trust life.
But last week in my writing, my mapping, it was all so clear. The start was clear. And the destination was clear. And so everything I wrote in between was very clear as well.
I had a conversation earlier that day with one of my clients... Explaining to her, on a business but also personal level, what I mean when I say, "Live as if... Work as if..."
And those that know me well, also know my conversations when I start on that philosophy of mine. They are best spent over a good cup of coffee, or yes, a glass of wine. But it just might be better if I save that conversation of writing with you, for another day.
However, I know there was an energy and an echo of that conversation with my client, that was still resonating with myself that evening.
The "intinerary" that I wrote was about the portfolio of clients that I am building with one of my projects. About the successes my clients are experiencing, and hence, the personal successes that I can experience through that. I take my work personally. Passionately, and personally. So I feel it right to call a professional success, a personal success as well. It was about who my clients are, and where my clients are. Literally, that itself was not only a mind map and a heart map, but also a worldly map.
I clearly declared my professional and personal passions. And that my clients are found in each of these.
A fashion designer. A jewellery designer. More clients in the world of interiors. A winery or two and then some. And a skin care line. Just to mention a few.
And I even went so far, as to name and declare a few of those that I would like to see as my clients. Those, that I would like to do magic for. And I simply sent out a wish and a prayer, that the perfect others, we'll find our way to each other as well. Those perfect others, that I can do good for, and that are good for me as well. That we both add abundance and goodness and purpose to each other and our intentions.
Well, consciously or subconsciously, I simply carried on living as if... And working as if.
Today, a week later and a glance over my shoulder, the magic didn't wait for me to arrive, magic came to me.
One new client with interiors. And another new client as a jewellery designer. But not just "a" jewellery designer, rather "the" jewellery designer that I had written down. With an exclamation mark.
And needless to say, they found their way to me. I didn't call, I didn't write... I simply lived as if. And I worked as if. I so to symbolically speak, cooked the meal, set the table and cleaned the house as if company was coming.
There was no expectation. But there was also no question. And there was no doubt.
And that's the secret, of the secret's secret.
Cook the meal, set the table and clean the house. Company is coming.
So, here's me in gratitude and in a state of wonder and all the more trust. With all the more gratitude.
It's all unfolding, just as it is meant to unfold.
I simply have to keep walking towards that goal, towards that vision. Not forcefully, but trustingly. And as if it's already there. Because it is already all there.
And for some reason, I just needed and wanted to share that with you. To remind you... Declare it. Speak it. Trust it.